Soooo it has been a while a very long while since I have written a blog, and here we are meeting again or maybe for the first time you are reading one of my sometimes sad, mostly happy and a lot of times funny blog!
I used to blog on tumblr and if you'd like to start my story for the beginning you are more than welcome to check it out at misha.egan@tumblr.com. Unfortunately for them, their sight frequently annoyed me by erasing my whole entry and had a lack of backgrounds to choose from. I like to be creative and change things up frequently and tumblr just wouldn't let me be myself....so here we go!
I will give you a brief over view of my crazy, fun, love filled life to start you off, or more so introduce myself and then we will let the blogging begin!
Hi. I am Misha Michelle Egan. In April of 2009 I married my best friend, the love of my life, a hero, a great father, and my strong point- Andrew Egan.
In May, the day after I graduated from the University of Arizona-GO CATS with a Bachelors of Science in Agricultural Technology Management and Eduction my hubby moved me to the sunny San Clemente California where he is currently serving of country in the United States Marine Corps.
On July 21, 4 weeks before the due date of our son while my wonderful husband was in the field 10hrs away doing some mountain warfare training I went into labor...8hrs later our handsome little man was born, 10 hours later that, my husband-his daddy, arrived to meet the little guy! Along with my mama and daddy who tried to drive over from the far side of Arizona in time to see his birth but didn't make it! Thank goodness for my husbands friend Ben who I'd officially met twice for taking me to the hospital on his birthday and staying with me until an hour and a half before I delivered and to my best childhood friend Cyndy for coaching me through the labor!
We began our happy little lives together and things seemed to be falling perfectly into place.
In October I had been experiencing some chest pain and after a few nights of this, and a painful dinner out with friends Andy FORCED me into the ER. Have I mentioned I HATE the doctors or I used to anyway. I got a chest xray, medicine to treat pneumonia, a request to make a future appointment for a CT Scan and I was sent on my way. With the word of my CT Scan being of no general importance or need for rush I went to AZ for the month of October, while yet again Andy was gone on training with a return to the hospital at the end of the month for my our life changing CAT Scan. At the age of 24, being married for 6 months and a 3 month old baby I got the news just minutes after my scan that I had a large mass in my chest. Doctors words, if its cancerous you'll need chemo. I ran out of the office crying to my husband, with fear in my heart and a sick feeling stomach in shock of what I had just been told.
By mid November I had met with an Oncologist, got the news that my Dr. was 95% sure I had Hodgkin's Lymphoma and had a biopsy done on a lump in my neck which left me spending my first night without my son, and a tube in my neck, draining blood from my wound. The day after Thanksgiving while laying in the small Springerville AZ emergency room with my daddy and a bacterial infection my husband generously gave to me from food poisoning he got from McDonald's I got the call that indeed confirmed I had the exact word that no one ever wants to hear! CANCER. With my husband admitted into the hospital and in a different room, I had to wait to share the dreadful news.
December, however was a great month with my first trip to Andy's home town of Woodbury MN where we enjoyed my very first white Christmas and a lovely wedding reception for us where I got to finally meet most of his family and friends!
We rang in the new year at my Families cabin in the White Mountains of Arizona and shortly after I got my port-o-catheter placed in my chest and just after my 25th birthday received my 1st dose of Chemotherapy. All of which once again my husband was away on training- during which I received my first month of treatment, allowing him to come home to a bald wife. The hair lost happened quickly. Along with sores in my mouth, acid reflex, severe constipation, upset stomach, intense muscle weakness, bone pain that went into the core of my bones and pretty much any other thing you can imagine, oh yeah like food tasting different, even water tasting bad, and trouble sleeping!
February seemed to fly by with no significant and then came March!
March, I got a PET Scan, these scans are like huge crazy Xrays that show where the cancer is and how it is responding to the chemo. Good news was the cancer had responded very well! Interesting news as the Dr. worded it, I had a fetus in my uterus! WHAT THE HECK! Dr. informed us that the baby looked small, in the first trimester and probably had no heart beat has they had been giving me shots to suppress my ovaries, birth control to ensure this wouldn't happen and not the mention the dreaded chemo. The next day Cyndy, my son and I went into the Dr. for the ultra sound where we learned I was already into the 2nd trimester...15weeks along, the baby indeed had a heart beat and it was in fact a little girl! This news did not come without concern. There was still a large possibility that she would have major health issues, even missing vital organs and it would be a week before I could see anyone in fetal assessment to ensure her health. Thankfully during that time my mama and daddy joined me for the great news that they couldn't find anything wrong with her! But how did I end up pregnant you my ask, after everything they were doing to ensure that wouldn't happen......well you seeee when a man loves a women..... I got pregnant before I even started the chemo and before all the preventatives just after being forced to stop nursing my son do to testing I needed, the doctors failed to give me a pregnancy test before they started the chemo and wa-la our little girl was conceived!
April brought on new trials and one of the hardest things I've had to endure. My husbands deployment. Off to war he went as I stayed back to battle my own war of cancer, be a mommy and have another baby!
The summer flew by with a move to our new, larger, beautiful home, our sons first birthday shared with both our amazing families at the cabin, a few trips to AZ, the last of my Chemo and the end of my pregnancy!
August 30,2010 our beautiful HEALTHY daughter joined the family just shy of midnight after a brief 15minutes of pushing. My mom, brother and daddy got to witness her very first moments and my dad even got to cut her umbilical cord. I had decided late into labor to get an epidural as this labor was more painful than my first after being induced. With my son I didn't receive one and wished I didn't this time either because after placing the epidural into my spin instead of the epidural pocket I found myself back in the hospital a week after delivering with an intense spinal head ache, receiving a blood patch and orders to lay around for a week and not lift anything over 5lbs. Thank goodness for family being here with me, otherwise I wouldn't be makin it as the single yet not "single" mom that I've found myself these past 5 months.
Thankfully as September has started, and fall seems to be in the air, with the deployments finish being insight we all find ourselves happy and healthy just awaiting my 5 week start to radiation and daddy's(my husbands) home coming!
Well that about sums up the crazy life I lead. My husband said once that we would squeeze everything we could into our first year marriage, childbirth, cancer, moving, gradating college, another pregnancy, and deployment so that the rest of our lives would be smooth sailing. I sure do hope he is right!
As for now just like I always have been, I'm just sitting back and trying to enjoy this wild ride, also known as my life!
